Blossoming

I think she's me. She's a clear indication of the emotions I felt, thoughts my mind birthed and the hope that rushed through my being. That's not to mention the fear, the panic and the eventual sadness.

We sat up at 3 am and I painted. Knowing something was wrong, helpless to stop it, ignoring what hurt. By 10am my doctor offered us his condolences; nothing could have changed the outcome -- exactly a week after I found out by chance, we'd lost our baby at 6 weeks.

I'm smiling a bit now though...hope's blossoming, I've made my peace, let go of being angry and decided that I have the best things in life; two amazingly supportive families, a being I shared this creation and everything else with, health, a small and awesome group of friends whose reactions taught me that I didn't need to feel so weird about something so natural and that we really had grown-up. (I couldn't call myself a girl anymore and I wrangled with why I felt a little odd when someone called me a woman. I talked to Drena S. and Tanya C. about this - our generation isn't "growing up" nearly as quickly as the one before.)

I find peace in knowing that the scary things are the ones that need to be embraced and confronted otherwise, we miss out on the best living has to offer. I have no regrets but the obvious -- just looking forward to life.

You know you want one

"A beautiful thing never gives so much pain as does failing to hear and see it." ~Michelangelo


This is my sketchbook.
It's handmade with lots of love by the insanely multi talented Mr. Rodell Warner.

Vibes him here!

Grow

This is a more recent watercolour. Completed a couple months ago.

I experimented with this style and liked it! But I think my newest obsession is with graphic pens and markers.

This is what I'm off to wrestle with now.

the "WOW" factor

"Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures."
--Henry Ward Beecher

Considering this quote, I understand why I'm just a little nervous about the attention my work has been recieving recently.

Without a doubt, I am deeply appreciative of this attention and the feedback. I am honoured that there are people who enjoy my work. I feel almost overwhelmed!

Here is my soul and my nature poured onto 120lb paper, defined in graphite, immortalised in paint, locked in by ink - laid open.

As A Matter of Fact...questions

1. Where is your cell phone: In the pocket of my hoodie
2. Your hair: A black mass of kinks and curls
3. Your mother: is a Social Worker
4. Your father: is a retired teacher
5. Your favorite food: Pad Thai or Basmatti rice with curried lambie and vegetables
6. Your dream last night: I had a series of crazy ones! I saw turtles and tortoises climbing up walls in a small room. I had an elaborate one where my grandmother, father and significant other were all written up in the newspaper for some sort of nefarious activity. I helped someone escape, a woman, only to find out she used me and then turned into my ex...go figure.
7. Your favorite drink: Water or apple juice or Coke.
8. Your dream/goal: successfully Working for myself
9. What room are you in: office
10. Your hobby: watercolouring, drawing, making things, reading, sewing
11. Your fear: spiders, drowning, large bodies of water, fire.
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years: Alive and building an empire
13. Where were you last night: Home
14. Something you aren’t: A Flirt
15. Muffins: Lemon poppy seed
16. Wish list item: Well, laziness is really the reason I don't have this yet; a charm bracelet with baubles for each momentous occasion. I haven't started it yet; I can't decide on what I want.
17. Where did you grow up: East Trinidad
18. Last thing you did: Read The Beautyful Ones Are Not Yet Born by Ayi Kwei Armah and feed the cats
19. What are you wearing: White cap sleeved shirt and jeans
20. Your TV: Neglected
21. Your pets: 2 cats; Mr. Blue Cat and Mr. Moo Cat
22. Your friends: not many...probably 2
23. Your life: Evolving constantly...
24. Your mood: Contemplative
25. Missing someone: Yea...
26. Vehicle: No...I'm actually a little afraid of driving.
27. Something you’re not wearing: makeup
28. Your favorite store: London Clothing or Benetton
29. Your favorite color (s): red, purple, green, navy, black and white
30. When was the last time you laughed: Day before yesterday; met an old co-worker, chatting was fun
31. Last time you cried: last night
32. Your best friend: don't have one
33. One place that I go over and over: Can't think of one
34. One person who emails me regularly: Lauren
35. Favorite place to eat: Joe's

Alis Volat Propriis

This is one of my earlier pieces. She is still unfinished but I quite like her that way. In comparison to my other graphite work, her eyes are underdeveloped and not as detailed as they usually are. However, I have noted that they possess even more depth than many oth my other pieces.

I think she speaks for herself ...