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Tuesday 18 August 2009

That being said...

I've made so many changes to my life recently! I think I'm distracted by them so I may take a break. On top of that, semester opens soon and I'll be back at school, beating books, so creative work may end up on the back burner for a little while. Changing one's major 3 times is not a good idea if you want to finish school! I'm somewhat content with the area of studies I eventually settled on. The next set of deliberation comes when I want to do my Masters. I don't even want to think about that right now.

I think I'm at a point where I'm evaluating what makes sense for me. I like to go through the garden that is my life and pull up the weeds and brambles, break the rocks into pebbles and allow the fruitful and beautiful to grow. I haven't decided who I want to be yet but right now, I know who I am. I toy with the ideas of being this or that, remove the things that or even the people who aren't helping me grow. Is that a bad thing, I wonder? Not being easily impressed?

I've learnt, it is also something I greatly respect in others, that I much rather have strength of character, dignity, self respect and a healthy pride than almost anything else. I rather be unknown than known for all the wrong reasons.

That being said, here's Ana.

ana


9 comments:

Radical Selfie said...

Um, is Ana's dress for sale somewhere, b/c I would SO rock that w/ some blue strappy sandals!

Andhari said...

I'm being bummed because school is about to start too :(

magdaayuk said...

I love the texture of Ana's hair;)
and also your analogy with the garden and the weeds. What are you majoring in now?

Brandi said...

i love what you said about rather being unknown then being known for the wrong reasons!! I dont think it is wrong for wanting to put distance between you and the things or others who are not helping you grow .. even the bible talks about that. it does not mean that you are rude or you do not love the person or do not speak to them etc ... it just means that you dont spend extra time with them or those things .. I struggled with this for a long time .. but i do believe that at times, it has to be done.

Hugs
Brandi

Ardourliene said...

Everything is well said. You speak nothing but the truth. I admire your ability to go forward. I need to follow through. Go back to school for something bigger then what I went to school for. Honestly where do one start?

oh my goodness, I LOVE your ART! and your hair ... simply beautiful.

Anonymous said...

I LOVE your art. I read your entry on BGLH today.

Gina said...

Hello. I love your artwork especially the black and white drawings. Keep it up. Just Beutiful.

Squarepeg Jam said...

Wow... your art work is great! Are they for sale? Cuz they would look fab on my wall :-D

And I am soooo feeling you on making changes. I too couldn't stick to one major at university, and went from physiotherapy, to interior design to tourism management. And now I'm headed back to university to do another degree in creative writing and journalism. Pretty sure I've found my niche this time! My mother calls me the eternal student but I wouldn't have it any other way because at least I KNOW what I don't want in a career and won't get stuck doing something I abhor!

And yay on the natural hair! I'm presently struggling with my locs... I often feel like chopping them off and going back to a flat cut, but a little voice keeps urging me to stick it out. Fingers crossed it works out in the end!

Don't Be a Slut said...

Wow. Love Ana. She's so intense, you can hear her thoughts.